January 18 2013 9:45PM

It's been a while since I've updated my blogs... These have been a busy few weeks!

Where do I start??? -QUICK UPDATE-
So, back in December, I auditioned for a play called "Love Rides The Rails" at the SWRTP (Southwestern Rural Theatre Project) and got a role... Even though I didn't get the role(s) I auditioned for, I got a good role that I am pleased with (and am really falling in love with...) It's a minor role, but quite a bit of work! I play a showgirl named Beulah Belle, and she dances the Can-Can (which I can't dance it for shit! But.. I'll get better with practice. lol) I also have to sing for this role (and I love singing!) The play opens next Friday and runs through February 16.
I am also (still) studying at the Uni. Im taking Arabic and Sociology. Interesting classes indeed!

The Way That I'm Supposed To Be

I try to live to the fullest
but there are ailments halting me
arousing discouraging feelings
that kill my motivation.
Disturbing trains of thought
fueled  by a dear friend called "fear"
plague my mind so deeply
I just can't hold back my tears...

Is it who I was taught to be
the way that I'm supposed to be
would you like that?
Is it who I was told to be
the way that I'm supposed to be
can I fight that?

I often wonder if I die
will I truly rest in peace?
Will I be free from these awful feelings
that keep me trapped in misery...
Will I fight those feelings
before they finish me eternally?
I'll be strong by all means
but first I'll let go of my tears...

Is it who I was taught to be
the way that I'm supposed to be
I don't like it...
Is it who I was told to be
the way that I'm supposed to be
yes I'll fight it.
Is it the way I want to be
the way that I'm supposed to be
Yes, I'll try it.