The Way That I'm Supposed To Be

I try to live to the fullest
but there are ailments halting me
arousing discouraging feelings
that kill my motivation.
Disturbing trains of thought
fueled  by a dear friend called "fear"
plague my mind so deeply
I just can't hold back my tears...

Is it who I was taught to be
the way that I'm supposed to be
would you like that?
Is it who I was told to be
the way that I'm supposed to be
can I fight that?

I often wonder if I die
will I truly rest in peace?
Will I be free from these awful feelings
that keep me trapped in misery...
Will I fight those feelings
before they finish me eternally?
I'll be strong by all means
but first I'll let go of my tears...

Is it who I was taught to be
the way that I'm supposed to be
I don't like it...
Is it who I was told to be
the way that I'm supposed to be
yes I'll fight it.
Is it the way I want to be
the way that I'm supposed to be
Yes, I'll try it.