Monday, September 9, 2013
September 9 2013 10 pm My Russian Journal lol
привет
меня зовут роуьиз
я студент мать и актриса
я живу в США
Я изучал право, музыке и языкам
Я хочу быть страшно адвоката
я 22 лет
я любить мой другзи и семья
пока пока
Written September 2 2013 11:27 pm
So this weekend has been a strange weekend.
Saturday I have tried to write a few pieces, but it was hard. Writer's block fucking sucks!
I also went shopping with my daughter. It was nice while it lasted. And then my fucking battery died! Or the vehicle stopped or I don't know what the fuck was wrong with it. What sucks is that I cant fix a fucking car! I cant do that shit because my family has never allowed me to learn how to fix vehicles. I'd try to watch my dad change a tire so I could learn. But get this... I was never allowed to even watch!!! Why? Because I lack a Y chromosome. Damn right. ?in other words, I meant that I'm a woman)
Which leads me to an upcoming topic... feminism. Maybe I'll start it in th
I will write about feminism, what it is, and will explain it. Tune in...
In other words, I'm so happy I got to talk to some friends today. I'm also happy that everything is going well with them. That makes me happy too. Also, my little Pink Bear is growing up and talks even more that she did. Its fun to hear what new words she uses, or how she can speak in complete s sentences. Or maybe in another post. Who knows. Lol.
Nah, OK the next post. I am sleepy as fuck.
Friday, August 30, 2013
August 30th 2013 7pm -UPDATE-
Hello Sweethearts...
Im back. I have not updated for a while. I will explain why in a bit..
There have been rumors going around stating that I have died. As you can see my dear readers, this is not true. I dont know how the fuck these rumors even started if I have been making posts elsewhere, and so has my assistant Fritz on my behalf. By the way, this is the REAL Rois Abend posting. The only other person whom I allow to post is Fritz, and he uses his signature after each post. But, my point with this brief statement is... don't believe the rumors, and don't follow the impostors. I will provide links to my official pages that way you know it's me and not some impostors (yes, there have been one or two impostors claiming my identity.)
Anyway, here is my update:
Since my last update in March, I've had a lot going on. I have been very busy with university, acting, my personal life, and other projects. Sometimes I've felt like complaining, but at the same time, I feel blessed to have been offered opportunities to partake in these projects.
Ok, so, I've passed my Arabic and Sociology classes with A's. What the fuck did I tell you all, huh? Rois Motherfucking Abend is not a fucking quitter...
I took more classes during the summer. That shit was fucking brutal! I will not go into explicit details because I'll be writing here for another four hours.
I did take that maths class. It was brutal and time consuming. It also brought forth some temporary consequences to my detriment, but it paid off. To my surprise, I actually passed the class and the exams with excellent marks. Same goes for my other three classes.
I also did a few plays. I did a play called "Lonely" where I got the lead. I also got the lead in "Off The Rack" These plays were awesome!
I also became a PFLAG member this summer. This is something I am immensely proud of! I have been going to meetings since June (mostly to do volunteer work, but I also got my benefits too) and the first meeting was amazing. I met my new family. I have two new wonderful moms now. ^^ (making a total of four moms that I have lol. Biological, adoptive, and my new adoptive moms that are a lovely lesbian couple.)
I got some support too (as you may/or may not know, I am bi- Maybe I'll make a special blogpost about it)
Some of the stories I've heard have really touched me. I will not make any references to respect the people in the support group.
I was also in this year's Albuquerque Pride Parade and Festival! I have been attending Pride for 5 years in a row, but this year was different. This was the first Pride Parade I was in. I felt great!!! Every year that I went and saw the parade, I was so happy and cheered loudly for everyone in it. This year, being on the other side of the parade, I felt even happier seeing the happy crowds that were there. People took pictures, cheered at us, tried to get hugs, kisses, and high-fives. But, that didnt really matter to me. I was happy to represent my community and to celebrate equality for everyone. Not just for the LGBT community, but for everyone!
I worked during Pridefest too. I helped host the PFLAG booth, talked to people and gave hugs to everyone. It really made my day. I also had lots of fun! I am so happy to be a part of a wonderful organization like PFLAG and I want to do more and become even more involved.
I also started a new project with a very good friend of mine. He's one of my very best friends in the whole wide world. The project is called Black and Red. We are the poets of metal!!! We've come up with some very good material and are still working on stuff. I'll keep you all posted once we have more stuff going on.
I want to start recording music this fall or winter. I've already started making some stuff. I'll definitely keep you posted.
I'm still penpalling as well. But, since I've been so busy, I have been a little behind on my letters and emails, but I promise I will write back to all of you (Yes, I'm talking to my penpals.) I love you guys!
I'd hate to delve into this subject, but this has been on my mind lately... The situation in the world (yes, mostly in Syria and Egypt) has made me very sad lately. I hope and pray that no wars will be made
I am also informing everybody about the Illuminati's agenda. DONT FOLLOW THEM! THEY ARE BAD PEOPLE! I'm putting my ass on the line too.
Of course, you can always ask me questions, shoot me a message, whatever. I will do my best to reply.
Well, I'm signing off for now. but you will hear from me.
Mood: tired
Music: Kaira- Say Fuck Them All
Meanwhile here are my official pages:
Facebook.com.roisabend
twitter.com/rottingkorpse
vk.com/id178580201
instagram.com/roisabenddasmich
interpals.net/IlluminatiKilla (subject to change)
vampirefreaks.com/u/fraudunkelheit
Im back. I have not updated for a while. I will explain why in a bit..
There have been rumors going around stating that I have died. As you can see my dear readers, this is not true. I dont know how the fuck these rumors even started if I have been making posts elsewhere, and so has my assistant Fritz on my behalf. By the way, this is the REAL Rois Abend posting. The only other person whom I allow to post is Fritz, and he uses his signature after each post. But, my point with this brief statement is... don't believe the rumors, and don't follow the impostors. I will provide links to my official pages that way you know it's me and not some impostors (yes, there have been one or two impostors claiming my identity.)
Anyway, here is my update:
Since my last update in March, I've had a lot going on. I have been very busy with university, acting, my personal life, and other projects. Sometimes I've felt like complaining, but at the same time, I feel blessed to have been offered opportunities to partake in these projects.
Ok, so, I've passed my Arabic and Sociology classes with A's. What the fuck did I tell you all, huh? Rois Motherfucking Abend is not a fucking quitter...
I took more classes during the summer. That shit was fucking brutal! I will not go into explicit details because I'll be writing here for another four hours.
I did take that maths class. It was brutal and time consuming. It also brought forth some temporary consequences to my detriment, but it paid off. To my surprise, I actually passed the class and the exams with excellent marks. Same goes for my other three classes.
I also did a few plays. I did a play called "Lonely" where I got the lead. I also got the lead in "Off The Rack" These plays were awesome!
I also became a PFLAG member this summer. This is something I am immensely proud of! I have been going to meetings since June (mostly to do volunteer work, but I also got my benefits too) and the first meeting was amazing. I met my new family. I have two new wonderful moms now. ^^ (making a total of four moms that I have lol. Biological, adoptive, and my new adoptive moms that are a lovely lesbian couple.)
I got some support too (as you may/or may not know, I am bi- Maybe I'll make a special blogpost about it)
Some of the stories I've heard have really touched me. I will not make any references to respect the people in the support group.
I was also in this year's Albuquerque Pride Parade and Festival! I have been attending Pride for 5 years in a row, but this year was different. This was the first Pride Parade I was in. I felt great!!! Every year that I went and saw the parade, I was so happy and cheered loudly for everyone in it. This year, being on the other side of the parade, I felt even happier seeing the happy crowds that were there. People took pictures, cheered at us, tried to get hugs, kisses, and high-fives. But, that didnt really matter to me. I was happy to represent my community and to celebrate equality for everyone. Not just for the LGBT community, but for everyone!
I worked during Pridefest too. I helped host the PFLAG booth, talked to people and gave hugs to everyone. It really made my day. I also had lots of fun! I am so happy to be a part of a wonderful organization like PFLAG and I want to do more and become even more involved.
I also started a new project with a very good friend of mine. He's one of my very best friends in the whole wide world. The project is called Black and Red. We are the poets of metal!!! We've come up with some very good material and are still working on stuff. I'll keep you all posted once we have more stuff going on.
I want to start recording music this fall or winter. I've already started making some stuff. I'll definitely keep you posted.
I'm still penpalling as well. But, since I've been so busy, I have been a little behind on my letters and emails, but I promise I will write back to all of you (Yes, I'm talking to my penpals.) I love you guys!
I'd hate to delve into this subject, but this has been on my mind lately... The situation in the world (yes, mostly in Syria and Egypt) has made me very sad lately. I hope and pray that no wars will be made
I am also informing everybody about the Illuminati's agenda. DONT FOLLOW THEM! THEY ARE BAD PEOPLE! I'm putting my ass on the line too.
Of course, you can always ask me questions, shoot me a message, whatever. I will do my best to reply.
Well, I'm signing off for now. but you will hear from me.
Mood: tired
Music: Kaira- Say Fuck Them All
Meanwhile here are my official pages:
Facebook.com.roisabend
twitter.com/rottingkorpse
vk.com/id178580201
instagram.com/roisabenddasmich
interpals.net/IlluminatiKilla (subject to change)
vampirefreaks.com/u/fraudunkelheit
Tuesday, March 5, 2013
3/5/2013 8:30 PM
I've been busy... That's why I've been away.
First, I had my play "Love Rides The Rails" which ran from January 25 through February 17. It was a complete success! I had to put a lot of time and effort into it, not to mention that I (and so have many cast members...) have gone through a lot to keep going. I had school, depression, home issues, and other issues associated with my private life, not to mention illness that nearly made me give up on this step to help make my dream come true.
I have enjoyed my time at The Project, made new friends, and hope to be back on stage again soon... I'm debating auditioning for "Love Song for Miss Lydia." I'm really hoping for the lead, but, I don't know...
Another thing that's been taking my time is school. Right now I'm trying to be a straight "A" student. But, it better pay off as I am 4 classes away from getting my General Studies degree. What sucks is that my Sociology class is hard. But, I'm not giving up. Rois Abend is not a quitter!
Arabic is challenging too. I am currently taking 2 courses (lecture) and 2 online courses (mostly language courses)
Next semester I'm gonna take maths, public speaking, classical piano, and maybe intro to biology with a lab. Maths and Biology scare me! :D But, I'm excited about my piano course. Maybe I'll work on some music and record shit.
And last but not least... My private life. Home, family, friends.... I'm in love with someone. I have 4 interests if you know what I mean. It's hard... and then other stuff happens.
I'll sign off for now. But you will hear from me again.
Mood: Sleepy
Music: Nox Doloris!
First, I had my play "Love Rides The Rails" which ran from January 25 through February 17. It was a complete success! I had to put a lot of time and effort into it, not to mention that I (and so have many cast members...) have gone through a lot to keep going. I had school, depression, home issues, and other issues associated with my private life, not to mention illness that nearly made me give up on this step to help make my dream come true.
I have enjoyed my time at The Project, made new friends, and hope to be back on stage again soon... I'm debating auditioning for "Love Song for Miss Lydia." I'm really hoping for the lead, but, I don't know...
Another thing that's been taking my time is school. Right now I'm trying to be a straight "A" student. But, it better pay off as I am 4 classes away from getting my General Studies degree. What sucks is that my Sociology class is hard. But, I'm not giving up. Rois Abend is not a quitter!
Arabic is challenging too. I am currently taking 2 courses (lecture) and 2 online courses (mostly language courses)
Next semester I'm gonna take maths, public speaking, classical piano, and maybe intro to biology with a lab. Maths and Biology scare me! :D But, I'm excited about my piano course. Maybe I'll work on some music and record shit.
And last but not least... My private life. Home, family, friends.... I'm in love with someone. I have 4 interests if you know what I mean. It's hard... and then other stuff happens.
I'll sign off for now. But you will hear from me again.
Mood: Sleepy
Music: Nox Doloris!
Friday, January 18, 2013
January 18 2013 9:45PM
It's been a while since I've updated my blogs... These have been a busy few weeks!
Where do I start??? -QUICK UPDATE-
So, back in December, I auditioned for a play called "Love Rides The Rails" at the SWRTP (Southwestern Rural Theatre Project) and got a role... Even though I didn't get the role(s) I auditioned for, I got a good role that I am pleased with (and am really falling in love with...) It's a minor role, but quite a bit of work! I play a showgirl named Beulah Belle, and she dances the Can-Can (which I can't dance it for shit! But.. I'll get better with practice. lol) I also have to sing for this role (and I love singing!) The play opens next Friday and runs through February 16.
I am also (still) studying at the Uni. Im taking Arabic and Sociology. Interesting classes indeed!
Where do I start??? -QUICK UPDATE-
So, back in December, I auditioned for a play called "Love Rides The Rails" at the SWRTP (Southwestern Rural Theatre Project) and got a role... Even though I didn't get the role(s) I auditioned for, I got a good role that I am pleased with (and am really falling in love with...) It's a minor role, but quite a bit of work! I play a showgirl named Beulah Belle, and she dances the Can-Can (which I can't dance it for shit! But.. I'll get better with practice. lol) I also have to sing for this role (and I love singing!) The play opens next Friday and runs through February 16.
I am also (still) studying at the Uni. Im taking Arabic and Sociology. Interesting classes indeed!
Tuesday, January 1, 2013
The Way That I'm Supposed To Be
I try to live to the fullest
but there are ailments halting me
arousing discouraging feelings
that kill my motivation.
Disturbing trains of thought
fueled by a dear friend called "fear"
plague my mind so deeply
I just can't hold back my tears...
Is it who I was taught to be
the way that I'm supposed to be
would you like that?
Is it who I was told to be
the way that I'm supposed to be
can I fight that?
I often wonder if I die
will I truly rest in peace?
Will I be free from these awful feelings
that keep me trapped in misery...
Will I fight those feelings
before they finish me eternally?
I'll be strong by all means
but first I'll let go of my tears...
Is it who I was taught to be
the way that I'm supposed to be
I don't like it...
Is it who I was told to be
the way that I'm supposed to be
yes I'll fight it.
Is it the way I want to be
the way that I'm supposed to be
Yes, I'll try it.
but there are ailments halting me
arousing discouraging feelings
that kill my motivation.
Disturbing trains of thought
fueled by a dear friend called "fear"
plague my mind so deeply
I just can't hold back my tears...
Is it who I was taught to be
the way that I'm supposed to be
would you like that?
Is it who I was told to be
the way that I'm supposed to be
can I fight that?
I often wonder if I die
will I truly rest in peace?
Will I be free from these awful feelings
that keep me trapped in misery...
Will I fight those feelings
before they finish me eternally?
I'll be strong by all means
but first I'll let go of my tears...
Is it who I was taught to be
the way that I'm supposed to be
I don't like it...
Is it who I was told to be
the way that I'm supposed to be
yes I'll fight it.
Is it the way I want to be
the way that I'm supposed to be
Yes, I'll try it.
Sunday, December 23, 2012
Sunday, December 23 2012
Hello my darlings,
Well, the world was said to end on Friday, but last I checked... We're still here motherfuckers!!!
These past few days have been ok. Unfortunately, I caught a cold, so, I am feeling miserable as I type... Grrrr... Hopefully tomorrow I'll be alright. Tomorrow is Christmas Eve and I am irritated. I am pissed off at the fact that there's no snow (it hasn't snowed at all this year.... FUCK!) and then there will be some family drama to deal with. I must admit that there I don't like 50% of my extended family. But, I also have adoptive family members that I adore. This year, I have met so many new friends at work and online/snail mail (through penpalling) and most of those friends have become my best friends. I also have 7 new big brothers (three from work <Alex, Bernie, and Andre>, and then a guy from Finland, a guy from South Africa, a guy from Algeria and a guy from Iran) and then Bastian and Heinrich (my actual "adoptive" big brothers) Sometimes I feel more comfortable talking to my friends (and new big brothers) than I do with some family members because they won't judge me and they'll support me. Plus, they will hear me out unlike my mom whenever I try to tell her what goes on in my mind because she and I are polar opposites. Anyway, I'll start talking about the good things today^^
Today I talked to 3 friends of mine. One of which I haven't talked to for a while and missed so much. That same friend made me laugh and smile when I was feeling down (and he didn't even know that I was feeling like shit!) and I just have to say that I love him so much for that! But, I'm still scared of telling him how I feel about him even though I shouldn't be.
We'll see what Christmas brings! Happy Holidays!
Well, the world was said to end on Friday, but last I checked... We're still here motherfuckers!!!
These past few days have been ok. Unfortunately, I caught a cold, so, I am feeling miserable as I type... Grrrr... Hopefully tomorrow I'll be alright. Tomorrow is Christmas Eve and I am irritated. I am pissed off at the fact that there's no snow (it hasn't snowed at all this year.... FUCK!) and then there will be some family drama to deal with. I must admit that there I don't like 50% of my extended family. But, I also have adoptive family members that I adore. This year, I have met so many new friends at work and online/snail mail (through penpalling) and most of those friends have become my best friends. I also have 7 new big brothers (three from work <Alex, Bernie, and Andre>, and then a guy from Finland, a guy from South Africa, a guy from Algeria and a guy from Iran) and then Bastian and Heinrich (my actual "adoptive" big brothers) Sometimes I feel more comfortable talking to my friends (and new big brothers) than I do with some family members because they won't judge me and they'll support me. Plus, they will hear me out unlike my mom whenever I try to tell her what goes on in my mind because she and I are polar opposites. Anyway, I'll start talking about the good things today^^
Today I talked to 3 friends of mine. One of which I haven't talked to for a while and missed so much. That same friend made me laugh and smile when I was feeling down (and he didn't even know that I was feeling like shit!) and I just have to say that I love him so much for that! But, I'm still scared of telling him how I feel about him even though I shouldn't be.
We'll see what Christmas brings! Happy Holidays!
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